[Ah...Sunny fidgets in his seat, the tips of his toes tapping the floor. It's...hard to explain even without having to talk out loud; not a path Sunny's really sure that he ought to be going down...]
im not really sure havent u ever been sad so u listen to a sad song?
But I do often think about sadness and the meaning behind it. The different aspects of it and its purpose in human beings. It's quite a fun thought exercise. Philosophy has different takes on it that are fascinating.
[He does watch horror movies in the hopes of finding a jump scare that does something. The results are inconclusive and that's not befitting of his image enough to bring up.]
Brightens considerably. Coffee forgotten at the edge of a small table.]
It is. If you find yourself bored, you should read up on the topic.
In relation to sadness itself, there are some common misconceptions that it's to contrast what are primarily considered positive emotions - the idea of a counter experience.
Then there are those who place each emotion on its own scale. One such view is that sadness derives from our response to knowing we are not omnipotent and the human realization that there are things out of reach forever.
My apologies for rambling - this is only to say the topic is vast, despite being such a simple, common emotion.
[Sunny listens. He's a good listener. He types on his phone with a dedicated, focused expression. He's much quicker with his thumbs than he is his voice.]
don't apologize i like this a lot we know sometimes why we're sad but not what the point is or how to make it stop
we want to understand because then maybe we can find a cure for that feeling
that's what i think
[That's his attempt to match Akechi's length, but honestly, Sunny has a lot more to say than people realize. He just struggles to say it. Texting has helped that a lot. He doesn't feel worn out, or anxious. He can talk about philosophy if he wants, because he doesn't have to open his mouth. Sometimes he thinks that nobody realizes he's not stupid.]
[It's an interesting take - a curious question. The implication of depression present in the conversation that follows. He keeps it in mind, for now, and focuses on the single emotion itself. ]
It's curious, isn't it? If you follow the logic of some, sadness is a necessity for happiness. If you take one, the other exists in excess and becomes meaningless. To find a cure would negate joy in the long run.
Then if you abide by the existence of it being its own entity, and in speaking of our previous conversation -
You wanted to consume sad media to be sad. If sadness was gone, what feeling would you chase then?
Is more aware than he lets on. Happiness taken away, sadness a constant presence - an injustice with emotions. There's experience behind those words, obvious and apparent. Asking him why he feels that way is pointless.
Akechi takes a minute - ponders the text under his fingers.]
Those who wrote those pieces likely felt the same. They wanted someone to resonate with it. I wonder who among this town would resonate with something you created.
[Sunny's embarrassed - that's entertaining. He digs his heels into the topic.]
I've heard creative types are rarely happy with their own work. Of course, you're not obligated to do anything, but imagine if John Clare felt that way and never published a single item.
It's a matter of perspective, is all. Bad to one is good to another. Happiness to one is sadness to another.
[He's misunderstanding. Sunny doesn't want to believe that there's anyone else in the world who would read his thoughts and relate. It's too terrible. He might deserve it, but other people don't.]
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it feels better
to feel worse
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im not
really sure
havent u ever
been sad
so u listen
to a sad song?
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But I do often think about sadness and the meaning behind it. The different aspects of it and its purpose in human beings. It's quite a fun thought exercise. Philosophy has different takes on it that are fascinating.
[He does watch horror movies in the hopes of finding a jump scare that does something. The results are inconclusive and that's not befitting of his image enough to bring up.]
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philosophy
is cool
i think that would be
really interesting
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Brightens considerably. Coffee forgotten at the edge of a small table.]
It is. If you find yourself bored, you should read up on the topic.
In relation to sadness itself, there are some common misconceptions that it's to contrast what are primarily considered positive emotions - the idea of a counter experience.
Then there are those who place each emotion on its own scale. One such view is that sadness derives from our response to knowing we are not omnipotent and the human realization that there are things out of reach forever.
My apologies for rambling - this is only to say the topic is vast, despite being such a simple, common emotion.
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don't apologize
i like this a lot
we know sometimes
why we're sad
but not what the point is
or how to make it stop
we want to understand because then
maybe we can find a cure
for that feeling
that's
what i think
[That's his attempt to match Akechi's length, but honestly, Sunny has a lot more to say than people realize. He just struggles to say it. Texting has helped that a lot. He doesn't feel worn out, or anxious. He can talk about philosophy if he wants, because he doesn't have to open his mouth. Sometimes he thinks that nobody realizes he's not stupid.]
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It's curious, isn't it? If you follow the logic of some, sadness is a necessity for happiness. If you take one, the other exists in excess and becomes meaningless. To find a cure would negate joy in the long run.
Then if you abide by the existence of it being its own entity, and in speaking of our previous conversation -
You wanted to consume sad media to be sad. If sadness was gone, what feeling would you chase then?
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for what u said
at first
i think that happiness
can all be taken away
but i don't think
sadness can
[As for Akechi's question...]
i don't think
i chase sadness
but maybe
[Maybe...]
when i hear
or read
something sad
it feels like someone
understands
[And he doesn't feel so alone.]
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Is more aware than he lets on. Happiness taken away, sadness a constant presence - an injustice with emotions. There's experience behind those words, obvious and apparent. Asking him why he feels that way is pointless.
Akechi takes a minute - ponders the text under his fingers.]
Those who wrote those pieces likely felt the same. They wanted someone to resonate with it. I wonder who among this town would resonate with something you created.
Perhaps you should try it sometime.
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i do write poems
but im bad at them
[He's not.]
couldnt show
anyone
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I've heard creative types are rarely happy with their own work. Of course, you're not obligated to do anything, but imagine if John Clare felt that way and never published a single item.
It's a matter of perspective, is all. Bad to one is good to another. Happiness to one is sadness to another.
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[Sunny's quiet for a long moment. He considers not saying it, but...does.]
i dont want
anyone
to feel the way
i do
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It's a matter of what you're willing to share to connect to another human being and have them connect to you.
Again, it's just a point to consider. The decision lies with you and you should do as you wish.
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maybe
one day
[He's no good at connecting with people either.]
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Something else. A nerve hit, maybe. Something to note.]
This was quite the heavy topic. Why don't we call it a day?
Though I would love to speak to you again about philosophy sometime. Talking to someone interested in it was enjoyable.
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ok
we can
i liked it too
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Thank you for indulging me today. It's been some time since I've been able to enjoy an outing like this with someone.
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[He can't quite smile; his expression is, in fact, relatively blank, but...he's appreciative underneath it.
[He...stands up from the table, unsure of how to exit.]
thats ok
i liked it too
so i will
c u later
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Goodbye, Sunny.